Disclamier...
This post has nothing to do with art - so here is your chance to tune out - which I understand completely. I can't vent on my other blog... so here I am spilling out...
Today has been a stressful day... had an hour long convo with the ex. I am drained and been crying on and off all afternoon. It's always the same he calls, starts out rational and nice - cause he wants something. Then the old stuff starts to bubble up like lava and before I know that switch has been hit, we are in the midst of all that old nasty garbage.
Yelling and trying to rehash and reinvent history - hoping to make it something it wasn't. After seven years he now wants a parenting plan, a reduction in child support and the kids with him half the time.
It's not that I am opposed to any of this -
the kids should spend more time with him, they'll be gone to college before too long.
he needs to get out of that dumpy one bedroom apartment, so they want to come over.
a parenting plan would hold him to visitation - which he has not done in seven years - something invariably comes up.
But he wants to do this all without attorneys and I have major trust issues with him. So many times what he proposes sounds good on the face of it, but then I usually come out of it deeper in the hole.
So today I am just not sure what to do... don't really want to blow all my savings on retaining my attorner - she needs $3000 to even start paperwork!
And then to complicate things further... he calls to apologize for letting his emotions get away and losing control. He still wants the same things and he doesn't regret saying them, just regrets the way he said them. If he'd been writing, he could have editted his words and not sounded so aggressive. He wants us to be able to talk. After all, there will be weddings and graduations to attend. Even said he hoped that when we talked about the past we could one day talk about the good times - what???
Okay - I'm done! No more whining - decisions have to be made... tomorrow!
if you made it all the way through this crap - thanks for listening. I'll try to post some actual art this week.
kso
xoxoxoxo
